Someones Everything

In the words of Snookie, "I don't want to be someones seconds. I want to be someones first priority." Maybe I am being a bitch, but when I finaly find the one, if there is a one for me, I want to be there everything. I never want to feel like I am second to anything in there life. I definately don't want to ever feel like I am putting more into the relationship then I am getting out of it. I have been down that road before and I will not travel it again. Men beware. I am jaded when it comes to this. I promise you. I have all my heart to give, but it will never be released completely at ease. I hope you are willing to put in the work. Ahhh, this may be why I am still single. THis may be why!

Stressed

Do you ever wonder why you are where you are and whats to come with what you are currently doing. I am sure you do from time and time again. Well I am in one of those spots right now. I feel that there is something else out there for me and that at this very moment in time I am selling myself short. I don't know why this happens to me, but every few years I get the urge to pack up and move away. Will I ever stay in one spot for more then four years? I am honestly starting to doubt it.

Waiting For You

As I look into my future I can't seem to get away. I get lost inside the thought Each and every single day. I thought you didn't like me You thought I moved on. But I am here to reassure you My feelings were never gone. I can't believe I find I still have these feelings for you I know you won't find anyone To make you happy like I do. I find myself now waiting For us to finally truly be. Why did take you so long To finally get back to me. I am glad for your curiosity To bring us both to realise That the only place for me to be Is in your arms lost in your eyes.

Mad Lately?

Aggression is always ingrained to a degree. There would be no natural behavioral pattern to express aggression if it didn't have some sort of genetic component.

Poker Night

Played poker last night. Invited my roommate to play so I could take all her money, and I did. Love it when you play with people who only bet when they have a sure hand. She was like taking candy from a baby. I almost felt bad. Ha, No I didn't. I hope she plays again with us tonight. Plus it is kinda nice to finally have another girl at the table. I like being the only one for the most part, but now and again its nice to have another one. I will say I am not very good at this poker thing either, but last night I cleaned house. Took money from everyone. Maybe I shouldnt play tonight. Haha... Take my money and run. Nah can't do that. We are grillin filet's tonight. So good.

I Miss You

I am sick with it. The need to be near you the need to touch and feel you. If only to just hear your voice for a split second. Words can not describe what it is that I feel inside. My stomach is all in knots and I don't know weather to dance or throw up. AHHHH, will this never end. I can't take it anymore. I just can't take not knowing.

Tsunami in Japan

Today

A ferocious tsunami spawned by one of the largest earthquakes ever recorded slammed Japans eastern coast. Hundreds were killed while it swept away boats, cars, houses, while widespread fires burned out of control. Hours later it hit Hawaii and warns raced across the Pacific, putting areas on alert as far away as South America, Canada, the entire US, and west coast in Japan.

The 8.9 offshore earthquake unleashed a 23 foot (7 meter) tsunami and was followed my more then 50 aftershocks for several hours. Many of them reached over a 6.0 magnitude. Dozens of villages along a 1300 mile stretch of coast line were shaken by violent tremors that reached as far away as Tokyo.

Even for a county used to earth quakes, this one was of horrific proportions because of the tsunami that followed swallowing everything in its path as it surged inland for several miles.

First waves hit Hawaii about 9am eastern time, waves reached around three feet. Japans worse previous quake was an 8.3 in 1923, it killed 143,000 people. Japan lies on what is called "the ring of fire" An arc stretching around the Pacific where about 90% of the worlds earth quakes occur, including the one in December of 2006 that killed around 230,000 people in at least 12 nations.

Facebook Takes Away The Fun of Stalking

So what happened to the creeps that had to study someones every move for days and sometimes weeks, learn their behaviors and there daily routines. You know those people that actually had to put work into finding you and finding your most vulnerable moment. They enjoyed the hunt, knowing how to pick the weak person who would sercum to the antics.

Well I bet they are pissed. I bet they hate facebook. It has ruined there whole game. There is no need to follow anyone or learn there behaviors. All this information is uploaded everyday, willingly by ladies around the country.

"FML, he left me, off to Z Spa with the girls."

"At Urban Active, working out with Mindy and Kim, then off to Starbucks."

"What a shitty day I am having, will someone please make me smile."

Yeah I am sure there are hundreds of men staring at your sad half naked profile picture just dreaming about how to make you smile. To bad one of them probably lives down the street from you and now not only does he know that your a cute little girl in his neighborhood, he knows your job, your relationship status, your entire families names. What you have been doing all week, where you go to school, who you hang out with on the weekends, where you hang out on the weekends. Need I say more. And why does he know all this. Not because he dug through your trash or has been following you around for the past couple of weeks.

Nope, he knows it all because he started a facebook page under the false name of Kim with a picture he grabbed off google. He added you as a friend, and since Kim appears to be a fun loving girl in her twenties who lives in your home town, you accepted. No harm in that , right.... Well your wrong. Now creepy 50 yr old George has complete access to all your information and its only a mouse click away.

Not the to mention the free semi porn you are providing him with your bikini shots and awesome duck face poses. Really ladies. How stupid have we become. No one thinks that shits hot. Facebook is not here to help you start up your career in the Adult Industry, although I feel that most girls think it is...

Ahhhh. Just ranting. Next.

YES I Sent A Mass Text

Well, I am bar tending part time again, just can't seem to stay away from it. So like my natural self, I sent out a mass text to inform everyone in my phone about where I am now working. Funny some people have the phones that allow you to see who else this message has been sent to.

What these people don't seem to understand is that I know this feature is there. I know that you can tell it is a mass text. So don't get all out of shape when you realize this too. I really got some hateful responses to my mass text on Saturday.

"You f-in suck, you sent out a mass text and here I thought it was just for me."

"Fuck, I wasn't special, I thought I was, you just want my damn money."

"You make it sound like it was just gonna be me and you watching it, but I get it your working. You really suck right now."

Those are just three of the responses I got to it. First off, these are obviously all from guys in my phone, not one single girl seems to care if its a mass text. They will be glad to come keep you company, and they never throw in the tip comment.

Second, Hell no it was not just for you. If I have never hit you up for a solo outing before what makes you think I am going to do it at 11am on a Saturday. Come on really guys, I am your friend this is my job, why the hell do you get so bent out of shape.

Third, yes I want your damn money, don't most girls. But at least you know whats up when you walk in the door. But believe it or not most days I would rather have the company, days bar shifts can be slow and drag on for ever. The money is just an extra perk. And as for the guy who said I maid it sound like it was going to be just me and him watching it; trust me son you definitely miss-read that one. What is wrong with men.

To all men out there be warned.... This bitch sends out mass texts when she is working and yes, it is partly because she wants your tip money. If I just wanted the company I would invite my mom, she can talk for hours and I would never have to worry about being bored.

What Do They Say, "The Straw..."

Isn't he just so cute with his bad over bite and droopy face. You can't help but love him. I will tell you what I don't love, his owner. Yes once again I am complaining about my lovely roommate. I am just so damn frustrated these days I have to vent somewhere. I just don't understand how someone could be so damn uncaring and lazy. I mean she takes care of absolutely nothing but herself.

So I came across this mess THREE days ago....

She swore to me she was going to clean it up. I should have known better. Has she, hell no. That is my basement, I work out down there everyday, the laundry is down there, the cleaning supplies, so I have been stepping over this shit to get down. I told myself I was not going to clean it up and see how long it would take her, But I cant handle it anymore. I mean how do you get through to someone how completely lazy and selfish they are. I am way to nice to this girl, but I am starting to get angry and that's not good. Nope, that's never good. Who lives there life like that. This isn't just shit in the corner you can honestly forget about, this is a huge frickin mess that you cant miss. WTF. I will never live with a girl again. I really cant even look at her anymore without disgust. I really don't want to live with her anymore, my lease is till October, I am never going to make it. I wish she would just move out.

SHIT Doesnt Cover It

My roomate strikes again, barrowed my favorite heels and left them out in the living room with the dogs. Weird, she never leaves her own shoes out, no matter how drunk she is.

This Girl Is Driving Me Crazy

Let me ask you if this is a sign of a responsible person?

So, girl #1 gets up at 5 am, lets out the dogs(one belonging to her and one to her roomate), feeds them, goes to gym, comes home. Apon ariving home she lets out the dogs again, takes a shower and then heads to job number one. Job number one is an office job, that requires some field work and sales. It last from 8 am to 2pm. Then she drives straight from job number one to job number 2, where she is a nanny. Kids homework, laundry, light housework. Nothing too grueling, but none the less she must be there. These jobs are both monday through friday every week the same ordeal.

Then you have girl number 2#, she is a nursing student who works maybe one day a week, two at the most. Granted she normally has classes 3 days a week and clinicals 2 so I c why she doesnt work as much as girl #1.

Now to explain where the above question comes into play; Yesturday girl #1 went through her normal routine and girl #2 had the day off from school and work. A nice break for her. Girl #1 decided to go and play poker after work instead of coming straight home. It is becoming her tuesday night ritual. And girl #2 is aware of this. Well poker normally last till about 10:30, not to late as she has to get up bright and early the next day.

When girl #1 got home around 11 girl #2 was complaining about how girl #1's dog was bad all day, peed in the house, continuous barking, so on and so on. So girl #1 says sorry and begins to assest the situation, for as her dog is normally not like that. Do you know what she discovered. Girl #2 admittingly had not fed the dogs at all, and was so anoyed by girl #1's barking 'hungry' dog that she kept him in his kennel as punishment for being "bad". Did not let him out the entire evening, its no wonder he peed on himself and in the house. He is a 4 month old puppy who can't hold his bladder. #2 then explained she had not fed them because her dog was out of food and she forgot. WTF. If you were out of food yourself would you just forget. Hell No. This is the same girl who never walks her dog, does her dishes, cleans after herself, or anything

But she does take two hours on her hair and make-up when getting ready to go out, and she does go out 2-3 nights a week.

I cant stand ignorant self centered people.