Hear's To You

Just my luck, I am surrounded by one of those people who must make sure everyone shares in there misery. I mean really is this shit necessary. Can't you be completely unhappy all on your own. It has come to the point where when your name comes up on my phone I just ignore it. Every time I see you its the same shit. I really don't want to hear about your awful day, and how you and your man are at it again. At this point I don't think anyone does. Its the same story every time I see you and I am wore out. So what is this her second marriage, and although she think its better then the first I am not so sure it is. She must be a glutton for punishment. Let me share a little insight on her story. She fell in love at 15, how sweet right, NO. The man she loved was 30. She got knocked up at 16 and her parents let her marry him at the age of 17. Really they should have been locked up for stupidity. Well, I don't know if you saw this coming, but it was a very abusive relationship both physically and mentally. SHOCKER. Somehow someway after ten years with this ass whole, bankrupt and raising a girl she ended up leaving him. Hooray! Then where are we, well we now have a 27 year old woman who never had a childhood. Who was suppressed and under lock and key. Well hell she may as well be a 21 yr old running away from a convent. She cut loose, pushing her daughter off on her parents. Understandable for a moment. Then she got her boobs done and god only knows how many men she hooked up with once those came in the picture. Whatever morals and values she ever had were nowhere in sight. The girl was def making up for last time. Now along comes husband number two, this one surprisingly only about 2 yrs older then her. He is a great guy. Accepts her daughter as his own, takes them into his home. Tells her how he can't wait to grow there family together. How he loves her and wants to have a baby. So what does she do, being that she has been an emotional mess her whole life. Well, she gets her flippin tubes tied. REALLY!! Why marry a man you know wants kids then freak out and get your tubes tied. Stupid stupid stupid. So lets cut to the current..... Her husband, who makes all the money, secretly He harbors this let down over the years. He always wanted kids and she knew this, bitch. He doesn't believe in divorce and has stuck by her through all her bullshit.Now 8 yrs into there marriage he has become somewhat of a drinker and travels a lot due to work. (Lets be honest, he travels to stay sane as she drives him crazy these days) She is now 38 and I am the friend that is closest to her age. The rest of the people she entertains herself with our between the ages of 20 and 25. I find it quite sad. She is starving for attention and acts so immature at times to get it. I am so tired of feeling like I am in high school around this woman. Keep your misery at home. I do feel for you. But I have herd the same shit from you everyday for the past two years. Really, fix your issues or get out. I don't want to deal with it anymore.

Strange News

So on days like today when I am feeling shitty, I like to search the news of the weird. Sometimes it cheers me up a bit. Who would think that the news could ever cheer you up right. Just google News of the Weird and you will come across all kinds of stories, like these.... This one is a bit sad. Chris Harding is a 23 year old from Texas was just recently given 3 years for beating up his own mother. Now beating up your mother is one thing but his case is extra special. His mother is disabled and requires a caregiver already. Not to mention in the heat of the fight he tore out her dentures. Really man, really! (Houston Chronicle 2/24/2011) Arkeen Thomas, 19, broke into a home in Port St. Lucie, FL in March. Unannounced to him the residents were still home. The man of the house immediately punched Arkeen in the mouth knocking out some of his teeth, sending him fleeing. Not to long later a women, identifying herself as Arkeens' mother arrived. All she wanted was to retrieve her sons gold teeth back from the home. Then she left. [TCPalm.com (Stuart, FL) 3-12-2011] 25 year old Ryan James Stephens of Cincinnati was charged with harassing a police dog. The officer wrote that he herd the K-9 barking uncontrollably from the back of his cruiser while he was investigating a car crash at a pub early on a Sunday. The cop, Bradley Walker, says that Stephens was hissing and barking at his dog. Walker then went on to report that Stephens said, "The dog started it." Stephens has to appear in court April 22 for these charges. (04-05) (PDT Mason Ohio AP) German 15 year old Regina Mayers was crushed when her parents told her she was not aloud to get a horse for fear that it would run and spook there cattle. This smart young lady didn't let this get her down on her dreams to be a rider. Shortly after her request a calf, named Luna, was born at the family farm. Regina began working with her immediately. Getting her accustomed to a halter, human contact, and even a saddle. These days Regina and Luna are the best of friends. Regina is now able to ride Luna for upwards of an hour at a time. Regina has also taught Luna to do jumps using only beer crates and painted longs. Regina says Luna thinks she is a horse. (04-05 PDT Laufen Germany (AP) )

Lets All Vomit

Today my stomach turns. Something is brewing and I can't quite put my finger on it. You know when you were younger and you did something wrong and you just knew that you were going to get busted. Or that you already were and you are just waiting on the punishment. Well, that's how I feel today. Just waiting for the bottom to fall out. But to fall out of what. What on earth has me so damn uneasy. I hate this. I want to throw up, I want to cry and most of all I want to crawl back into bed. Maybe I just need a drink to take the edge off. Shit I hate this.

Winning Today And Forever

A habit that you just can't seem to kick. Its round 2365 and right now I am winning. How long will this victory last? There is no telling. This time I hope forever. I am in control of this fight one hundred percent. Have been since the day it began. Strange how so often in life we are in complete control of the outcome yet we choose to allow ourselves to loose. Choose to just lay down and take it. Tapping out before the round has even begun. This sense of weakness every human seems to carry. Well for me this fight is mine, I am choosing to stand up and take control and never let it go. Those who just continue to lay down, in whatever there fight may be, will not go far. Have not gone far. Good luck. I am moving on to the next competition.

What You Do To Me

Never in my wildest dreams did I imagine this could be, Out of nowhere you came and took a hold of me. Now my heart is raceing and I cant see the end, Im beginning to think and my rules I may bend. Somewhere in your simple smile, I find myself in need to get lost for awhile. To be held in your arms and touched by your lips, Made a move through my body like pulsating rips. The future I can dream will be everything and ours, As long as I promise to never drive any of your cars. ;) But in all seriousness I cant get you off of my mind, This feeling you bring was something I thought Id never find. I miss you already and plans I shall make, To capture your heart and soul for I want it to take. This lonely sad feeling we can both leave behind, For you have truely and completely begun to blow my mind.

Its Been Awhile

Its been too long since I had a weekend like I just had. Surreal in most ways. Away from everything that causes me stress. With you who make me smile from the inside out. I don't even know what to say. To be care free and completely happy was so strange. If even only for three days. It was worth it. All my drama floated away. The job didn't matter, money didn't matter. Responsibilities went to wayside. I feel that too many of us don't enjoy moments like these, we get to caught up in the monotony of life. Selling ourselves short of what it is we really deserve. Well, I want more of these moments. Many more. From time to time it is nice not to have to worry about anything. Staying in your sweats all day and lounging in the sun. Now this could be the life. Well, in all honesty, this can't be the life all the time. But here and there I will take it. As long as I have the same company from here on out I think I could be happy with just about anything.