WOD 1-28-11

Workout of the day.

1000 meter row
100 Double Unders
50 Burpees

For time.
My time 14:34

Guess I got to pick up my speed. I hate burpees.

Shit

Personally for me I have always wanted to be a wife and a mother. I always pictured myself getting married at a very young age, growing old with my husband, and enjoying grandchildren with him. But funny how life doesn't always work out how you hoped, dreamed, or planned. So I got used to things not being the way I planned, got comfortable with being single. Figured it would all come together if it was meant to. Funny how once you stop looking for something it seems to find you, and naturally for me, when the opportunity does seemingly present itself, there is an obstacle. That's just how life goes. Mine anyway. What would it be if there wasn't shit against me every now and again, rather boring I guess.

Only You.

Painted a picture of how its was to turn out.

Down in a cold dirty well and I'm trying to climb.

Can't see no lights, cant hear no bells.

They walk right over me and cant even hear my yells.

My mind is spinning around.

I'm on my way down.

The louder I am, the deeper I sink.

Hell seems like such a close link.

Only You can hear me now,

Only you can save me now.

Push Over No More

As I reflect on the last 23 days of the first month of the new year, I realise, I see myself becoming more tolerant of the things I sometimes feel I should not tolerate. As I continue to push myself to act according to my thinking, I sometimes find myself feeling like a pushover, who is passing over the opportunity to just be. Settling is just not an option today, but somehow I tend to allow b and c into the equation. How do you stand firm when your feelings are so fickle.

Left Field. Holy Shit!

So this is so out of left field...

I get a facebook add a couple days ago and naturally I don't recognize the name. But I am a master at forgetting names so I try to click on the picture and of coarse you must be their friend to view anything on their profile. I agree with this protection of privacy 100% but damn-it when I have to add strangers due to my own forgetfulness.

So I decide, add them, if I know them I will keep them and if I don't I will delete them as fast as I added them. To my surprise I knew this person. Knew this person quite well. Ended up being a good friend of mine from years ago that I had just wrote off as a person I would never see again.

Now hear is where it gets crazy. I didn't really know him for long and it has been seven years since I had seen or herd from him. But he claims, and I stress he claims, to have never forgotten about me. Says he has been looking for me for months. Reminding me of all the details of our entire relationship. To my own very surprise I now can't get him out of my head either.

He lives too far away for us to meet up and leaves across seas in three days. He will be gone for two months. I don't know what to think, I am confused. Never in a million ears did I expect him to come back into my life but now that he has I don't want to loose him again. So bizarre and I love it. I just hope he makes it back safely.

No More Smoking

I woke up with a headache and I am dragging ass to get out of bed. I didn't want to get up so I didn't. I missed my gym appointment and now I am pissed. I will have to try and go tonight. To bad I can never get motivated to go in the afternoon. Blah.

My roommate accused me of eating her food this mourning. Why didn't I just tell her the truth, I don't know how it got there but I picked half of it up off the floor today. Dogs surely enjoyed it. Did you leave it out and forget. Sometimes I feel like a mother, I don't want to correct people in there everyday lives. I don't have any kids and i am sure if I do I will get enough mothering in then so I shouldn't have to do it now.

My throat burns. I smoked too many cigarettes last night. That's it. I am done. The world is my witness. Cold turkey right here and right now. No more smoking....

Where It Came From

Ever wonder where the black leather jacket came from, or the cold stare you get from the man wearing it out in front of the bar. What about the cold shudder that runs down your spine as you pass the guys wearing the bandannas and sharply creased khakis. Well, here is some insight, the idea of this sole called rebel actually took shape due to Hollywood. Weather you like it or not, that is the truth. But don't let it bother you if you just realized that your own personal style is actually a knockoff of what was being done on the silver screen some 60 yrs ago.

Let me remind you that even as a copycat you are in very good company. There is Bucky, Brando, McQueen, Presley, Newman, and I could go on and on. They were all doing it back in the day. Nobody did Rebel the way these guys did it. I mean nobody.