Toys For Tots : FRAN

Today was the Toys for Tots fundraiser at the local Derby City CrossFit. What is great about CrossFit is that even though all the gyms in the area are not owned by the same people we all still manage to come together like one single community at any given time.

The WOD that we chose to do today was Fran. Now if you are not familiar, CrossFit has a few special WOD's that they have named after people. Some after men and some after ladies. Fran is a workout that goes like this:

21 Thrusters (95/65)
21 Pull-Ups
15 Thrusters (95/65)
15 Pull-Ups
9 Thrusters (95-65)
9 Pull-Ups
FOR TIME

This is without a doubt one of my least favorite workouts. It only takes me about 6:15 to do it, but when I am done I am on the floor with the urge to vomit. Each gym, Derby City and CrossFit Louisville East, had there own elite team consisting of two females and three males that went head to head in the very last heat. Now that was interesting to watch. As I suspected out team killed them. But it was all done in good fun and we raised tons of toys for the local children.

This is why I love CrossFit. Always coming together for some good friendly competition and always changing it up. My trainers are always pushing me to do my best and making sure I don't slack. I am stronger then ever and confident this will take me far, keep my life happier, and keep me strong. Its a lifestyle and I love what it is doig for me.

3 Days In

AND ITS ALL OVER

I think this was a bad idea.. upon further consideration I have decided to wait till after the holidays to begin this cleanse. I don't have the will power to turn down my mothers home made cookies. Plus I went bowling last night and ate some springs rolls. Not exactly on my plan. If your gonna cheat you may as well not play is what I always say. This is a venture I was not mentally prepared for I quickly discovered. So I guess we will need to wait till the new year to see if I can stick to it. Yes this is me bowing down and bowing out. But I am going to use the next two weeks to practice I guess. Sticking as close to there meal plans as I can.

Day 1 - 20 To Go...

Today was not as bad as I thought, although broccoli and chicken is going to get really old really fast. At 5'7 I am weighing in at 140.4 lbs. Not a bad weight. But lets see where I am in 21 days. I already miss peanut butter and cheese. This is going to be no walk in the park.

A friend of mine called me up and asked me to come out for dinner. I had to opt to stay home and study. See I have been feeling a little "jiggly" lately as seeing as how I work out 4-6 days a week I am contributing this annoying jelly roll to my bad eating habits. Now yes, some may argue that these subtle curves I posses are "womanly", I don't deny that. I also do not wish to get rid of them completely, but I wouldn't mind just toning up a little bit.

Since there is no way to fault my workout habits I was left with no choice but to start really be conscious of my food intake. That's when I came across this 21 day raw cleanse diet. So I figure why not give it a shot. I surprisingly made it through day one with not a single issue. The recipes are not that bad. I just don't know how I am going to feel on day three let alone day 21.

Is a three week raw cleanse diet something you would ever consider doing. I got 20 more days to go.

The 21 Day Cleanse

Tomorrow I am starting my 21 day cleanse diet designed by personal trainer and bootcamp instructor, Bryen Pinkard. I was on schedule to start today, but didn't have time to go to the store last night and pick up the 900 eggs I am going to need for this thing. I have been reading through the required meals and I do not know how this is going to go. I do foresee it being quite hard for me as I have been quoted before as being the "Fat girl trapped in a skinny girls body." I will be updating my blog from day to day to try and help keep me motivated and honest through the next 21 days. I have heard mixed reviews on this cleanse and will most likely be making some rather slight changes. But will post those as well. So tomorrow is the first day of a very long three weeks. Wish me luck.

Tough Mudder Pointers

Just recently me and my girl Renee participated in the Tough Mudder, said to be the toughest event on the planet. If you are not familiar with the Tough Mudder it is a hard core 10-12 mile obstacle coarse designed by someone from the British Special Forces. It was made to test your strength mentally and physically, your stamina, and your camaraderie. All the while raising money for the wounded warrior project. This race was amazing.

Word to the wise, I recommend being prepared to completely freeze. There are a few things you can wear to make it slightly less brutal. To start, think less is more. The more clothes you pill on the more water you will carry in them around the coarse. There is no way you are going to keep your feet and hands dry so focus on keeping them as warm as possible.

For the hands I recommend neoprene gloves. 3mm diving gloves will do, or for the cheaper route I may suggest neoprene fishing or kayaking gloves.

For the feet lets try and find some wool socks. Ski socks are good. The higher the percentage of wool they contain the better. They wont keep your feet dry, but they will help to keep the heat in as much as possible. Absolutely no cotton, wearing cotton is almost worse then running naked.

Upper body: I prefer to run in a clima-cool tank top as long as I can, but if it is absolutely to cold to withstand I recommend a cold-gear long sleeve compression mock. Under Armour makes a good one. But any quick dry moisture transfer top will do.

Lower Body: The Cold Gear Frosty compression tights from Under Armour are also a good idea. They are good at keeping your body warm and pushing out sweat as well. My favorite are the CW-X Insulator Expert Tights. They are a little more pricey but I find them to be the best.

My favorite accessory: The shoes, Inov-8. I recommend either the Inov-8 X-Talon 212 or the Inov-8 X-Talon 190. Both have great reviews and I speak from experience when I say they are a must have. While everyone else is slipping and sliding around the coarse you will find yourself gliding through with ease. They were 100% the best purchase I made for my Tough Mudder race.

If you are running The Worlds Toughest Mudder this weekend, I recommend you bring multiple pairs of fresh socks, I would change them every few hours. Maybe even a second pair of shoes if you have them. Cold Gear head wear is good as well. Just remember you will be completely submerged in water on more then one occasion.

Good Luck!

CrossFit Has Changed My Life

So I am on a new health kick. Day by day my life is changing and I owe it all to CrossFit. I began the CrossFit program back in October of 2010. I had a hard start at it but soon fell in love. I quickly began to see that I was getting stronger, that I could do things I never thought possible. The great thing about CrossFit, is that like me, any average person can start the program. You don't have to be a gymnast, olympic lifter, or an elite athlete.

I began at CrossFit the Ville in Louisville KY. Like I said, the begining was not easy, but my trainers and fellow CrossFitters kept me coming back for more. Once the initial soreness went away and the results quickly began to show I couldn't get enough. Not only am I physically changing on the outside, but mentally and on the inside as well. I have more endurance and stamina then ever before.

I love being active and my party life has been cut down, almost cut out. My circle of friends is also gradually changing. Instead of looking for the next person to hit up a bar or club I find myself looking for whos going to partake in todays WOD with me, or whos interested in training for the upcoming adventure race with me.

I find that when you feel good physically and mentally then everything else in your life seems to change for the better. This marks a new beginning for me and I can't wait to share it with everyone.

My Brother, My ,& Me

Brewing Einstein

So my roommate got knocked up. What a smart thing to do. The damn girl can't even take care of her dog, let alone a baby. She is completely nasty and I feel like I spend all day picking up after her. People tell me different ways to make her get the point. She doesn't, nothing works. She is just a lazy, dirty human being. I refuse to even bring friends over to my house because I am too afraid we will walk in and she will have left a giant mess in the kitchen or anywhere else. Its flipping embarrassing.

So back to her being pregnant. Haha, I laughed when I found out. "Serves her right." I thought. The 'baby daddy' is ten years older then her, doesn't have a car, and is a server at a casual cafe. Not to mention he already has two kids by another women, who is completely psycho, that he never even sees. She picked a real winner there. Not like she is a major catch or anything. The best part is, two days before she found out she was prego she had broken up with the looser and told him not to come by the house anymore. Perfect, finally.

Oh, but the dream was short lived. She finds out she is pregnant on a Monday, do you know why this is relevant to anything.... because she refused to take the pregnancy test over the weekend for fear that the possible positive result would hinder her drinking plans. God this baby is a lucky child. So Monday rolls around, she takes four test, all positive, she cries and cries and cries. I sorta feel bad for the girl. Then she does something I should have expected. She calls up the daddy tells him the news and not only gets back with him, but moves him into our place. WTF.

Now I live with two nasty, lazy, dirty, idiots that don't have a complete brain between the two of them. For this child's sake I hope they are right when the say genius skips a generation. If there is any truth to this then folks, my roommate is brewing the next Einstein.

AHHHHH

Frustration exudes me as I find myself in yet another predicament. Yet again something obtainable that I am forced to ignore. Is this the stance for the rest of my life. Every open ended road seems to fork to yet another fork. Where is my straight path, why cant I find it. But honestly folks, would I even take it. Doubtful. This confusion and frustration seems to be what my body thrives on. It keeps me breathing everyday and grinning every night. Nothing is desired that is obvious or predictable. What fun would my life be then.

UpDates On Me

Being busy is one thing that summer time seems to always bring with it. I am down to only one job for the summer time but now consumed with so many other activities I think, no, I know, I am busier then I was when I was working two. Breath.......

Update Number One: I recently joined this great co-ed sports league that has some how taken up all my free time. I am playing softball, and football, and my favorite.... kickball. Finally I got back into Crossfit. What a mistake it was to stop doing that. My body has been so sore the last two weeks. So now I have Crossfit 5 days a week and sports four... You think that may get me in shape??? I sure do hope so.

Update Number Two: My infamous and glorious roommate has recently informed me that she is pregnant. God help us all. She can't even take care of her dog, let alone a baby. How could she be so irresponsible. Condoms are so easy to get and really not that expensive. Luckily for her she knows who the daddy is. Not like her scare a few months back where she thought she was prego and had no clue who the dad might be if she was. I am never for abortion, but I sure do hope she considers adoption. This poor innocent child. Well maybe it will be the best thing for her. Maybe......

Update Number Three: I am house shopping and I think I hate it more then I hate car shopping. I finally found one I liked in my price range, only to get out bid by some other shit head. Now I am back to square one and not so in love with my situation. I need this to move along. My lease is up in October and staying where I am is not an option.

Final Update: I am job hunting.... anywhere in the United States really. I could move, right... No problem. I need a new job by August. So if your hiring hollar at your girl.... If not, still holllar. LOL. Well, that's all for now.. Till next time.

Simplicity Of The Mind

What would you say having simplicity of the mind is.

I feel it may be the ability to dream, constantly, without any restrictions or reasoning. Maybe being able to let go of all that ties you down and heavies your heart. Because in the end the ability to do those things will bring peace to mind.

I wish I was able to only concern myself with the present. The power those must hold. Not worried about how past or current actions shall reflect your future. Just doing and being in the moment with no reguard to anything else. I want that.

Let Myself Down

Isn't it just amaizing how we let ourselves get distracted by the stupidest things in life. How we put our blinders on with ease and fall into a routine that we shouldn't allow ourselves to follow. Well, not that I am talking about myself..... Oh yes I am. Once again I played the game like a fool. I feel a sense of Deja-Vu. Like this has happened before. Wait it has.....

So I wake up today and remind myself that I can easily get back on track. Starting by getting back to the gym. Why ever would I stop doing that I do not know, but it is so easy.

I was distracted. In the best way I could have been. You smiled and I melted. But I need to remember me, because it is all about me today tomorrow and so on. I shall never loose track of myself again. How stupid of me to think this time was different. I am more often then not to quick to give in. There for always getting hurt and feeling let down. I am tired of being this way. You have taught me alot in the last two weeks and you don't even know it.

So in a strange way, Thanks. I owe you.

Hear's To You

Just my luck, I am surrounded by one of those people who must make sure everyone shares in there misery. I mean really is this shit necessary. Can't you be completely unhappy all on your own. It has come to the point where when your name comes up on my phone I just ignore it. Every time I see you its the same shit. I really don't want to hear about your awful day, and how you and your man are at it again. At this point I don't think anyone does. Its the same story every time I see you and I am wore out. So what is this her second marriage, and although she think its better then the first I am not so sure it is. She must be a glutton for punishment. Let me share a little insight on her story. She fell in love at 15, how sweet right, NO. The man she loved was 30. She got knocked up at 16 and her parents let her marry him at the age of 17. Really they should have been locked up for stupidity. Well, I don't know if you saw this coming, but it was a very abusive relationship both physically and mentally. SHOCKER. Somehow someway after ten years with this ass whole, bankrupt and raising a girl she ended up leaving him. Hooray! Then where are we, well we now have a 27 year old woman who never had a childhood. Who was suppressed and under lock and key. Well hell she may as well be a 21 yr old running away from a convent. She cut loose, pushing her daughter off on her parents. Understandable for a moment. Then she got her boobs done and god only knows how many men she hooked up with once those came in the picture. Whatever morals and values she ever had were nowhere in sight. The girl was def making up for last time. Now along comes husband number two, this one surprisingly only about 2 yrs older then her. He is a great guy. Accepts her daughter as his own, takes them into his home. Tells her how he can't wait to grow there family together. How he loves her and wants to have a baby. So what does she do, being that she has been an emotional mess her whole life. Well, she gets her flippin tubes tied. REALLY!! Why marry a man you know wants kids then freak out and get your tubes tied. Stupid stupid stupid. So lets cut to the current..... Her husband, who makes all the money, secretly He harbors this let down over the years. He always wanted kids and she knew this, bitch. He doesn't believe in divorce and has stuck by her through all her bullshit.Now 8 yrs into there marriage he has become somewhat of a drinker and travels a lot due to work. (Lets be honest, he travels to stay sane as she drives him crazy these days) She is now 38 and I am the friend that is closest to her age. The rest of the people she entertains herself with our between the ages of 20 and 25. I find it quite sad. She is starving for attention and acts so immature at times to get it. I am so tired of feeling like I am in high school around this woman. Keep your misery at home. I do feel for you. But I have herd the same shit from you everyday for the past two years. Really, fix your issues or get out. I don't want to deal with it anymore.

Strange News

So on days like today when I am feeling shitty, I like to search the news of the weird. Sometimes it cheers me up a bit. Who would think that the news could ever cheer you up right. Just google News of the Weird and you will come across all kinds of stories, like these.... This one is a bit sad. Chris Harding is a 23 year old from Texas was just recently given 3 years for beating up his own mother. Now beating up your mother is one thing but his case is extra special. His mother is disabled and requires a caregiver already. Not to mention in the heat of the fight he tore out her dentures. Really man, really! (Houston Chronicle 2/24/2011) Arkeen Thomas, 19, broke into a home in Port St. Lucie, FL in March. Unannounced to him the residents were still home. The man of the house immediately punched Arkeen in the mouth knocking out some of his teeth, sending him fleeing. Not to long later a women, identifying herself as Arkeens' mother arrived. All she wanted was to retrieve her sons gold teeth back from the home. Then she left. [TCPalm.com (Stuart, FL) 3-12-2011] 25 year old Ryan James Stephens of Cincinnati was charged with harassing a police dog. The officer wrote that he herd the K-9 barking uncontrollably from the back of his cruiser while he was investigating a car crash at a pub early on a Sunday. The cop, Bradley Walker, says that Stephens was hissing and barking at his dog. Walker then went on to report that Stephens said, "The dog started it." Stephens has to appear in court April 22 for these charges. (04-05) (PDT Mason Ohio AP) German 15 year old Regina Mayers was crushed when her parents told her she was not aloud to get a horse for fear that it would run and spook there cattle. This smart young lady didn't let this get her down on her dreams to be a rider. Shortly after her request a calf, named Luna, was born at the family farm. Regina began working with her immediately. Getting her accustomed to a halter, human contact, and even a saddle. These days Regina and Luna are the best of friends. Regina is now able to ride Luna for upwards of an hour at a time. Regina has also taught Luna to do jumps using only beer crates and painted longs. Regina says Luna thinks she is a horse. (04-05 PDT Laufen Germany (AP) )

Lets All Vomit

Today my stomach turns. Something is brewing and I can't quite put my finger on it. You know when you were younger and you did something wrong and you just knew that you were going to get busted. Or that you already were and you are just waiting on the punishment. Well, that's how I feel today. Just waiting for the bottom to fall out. But to fall out of what. What on earth has me so damn uneasy. I hate this. I want to throw up, I want to cry and most of all I want to crawl back into bed. Maybe I just need a drink to take the edge off. Shit I hate this.

Winning Today And Forever

A habit that you just can't seem to kick. Its round 2365 and right now I am winning. How long will this victory last? There is no telling. This time I hope forever. I am in control of this fight one hundred percent. Have been since the day it began. Strange how so often in life we are in complete control of the outcome yet we choose to allow ourselves to loose. Choose to just lay down and take it. Tapping out before the round has even begun. This sense of weakness every human seems to carry. Well for me this fight is mine, I am choosing to stand up and take control and never let it go. Those who just continue to lay down, in whatever there fight may be, will not go far. Have not gone far. Good luck. I am moving on to the next competition.

What You Do To Me

Never in my wildest dreams did I imagine this could be, Out of nowhere you came and took a hold of me. Now my heart is raceing and I cant see the end, Im beginning to think and my rules I may bend. Somewhere in your simple smile, I find myself in need to get lost for awhile. To be held in your arms and touched by your lips, Made a move through my body like pulsating rips. The future I can dream will be everything and ours, As long as I promise to never drive any of your cars. ;) But in all seriousness I cant get you off of my mind, This feeling you bring was something I thought Id never find. I miss you already and plans I shall make, To capture your heart and soul for I want it to take. This lonely sad feeling we can both leave behind, For you have truely and completely begun to blow my mind.

Its Been Awhile

Its been too long since I had a weekend like I just had. Surreal in most ways. Away from everything that causes me stress. With you who make me smile from the inside out. I don't even know what to say. To be care free and completely happy was so strange. If even only for three days. It was worth it. All my drama floated away. The job didn't matter, money didn't matter. Responsibilities went to wayside. I feel that too many of us don't enjoy moments like these, we get to caught up in the monotony of life. Selling ourselves short of what it is we really deserve. Well, I want more of these moments. Many more. From time to time it is nice not to have to worry about anything. Staying in your sweats all day and lounging in the sun. Now this could be the life. Well, in all honesty, this can't be the life all the time. But here and there I will take it. As long as I have the same company from here on out I think I could be happy with just about anything.

Someones Everything

In the words of Snookie, "I don't want to be someones seconds. I want to be someones first priority." Maybe I am being a bitch, but when I finaly find the one, if there is a one for me, I want to be there everything. I never want to feel like I am second to anything in there life. I definately don't want to ever feel like I am putting more into the relationship then I am getting out of it. I have been down that road before and I will not travel it again. Men beware. I am jaded when it comes to this. I promise you. I have all my heart to give, but it will never be released completely at ease. I hope you are willing to put in the work. Ahhh, this may be why I am still single. THis may be why!

Stressed

Do you ever wonder why you are where you are and whats to come with what you are currently doing. I am sure you do from time and time again. Well I am in one of those spots right now. I feel that there is something else out there for me and that at this very moment in time I am selling myself short. I don't know why this happens to me, but every few years I get the urge to pack up and move away. Will I ever stay in one spot for more then four years? I am honestly starting to doubt it.

Waiting For You

As I look into my future I can't seem to get away. I get lost inside the thought Each and every single day. I thought you didn't like me You thought I moved on. But I am here to reassure you My feelings were never gone. I can't believe I find I still have these feelings for you I know you won't find anyone To make you happy like I do. I find myself now waiting For us to finally truly be. Why did take you so long To finally get back to me. I am glad for your curiosity To bring us both to realise That the only place for me to be Is in your arms lost in your eyes.

Mad Lately?

Aggression is always ingrained to a degree. There would be no natural behavioral pattern to express aggression if it didn't have some sort of genetic component.

Poker Night

Played poker last night. Invited my roommate to play so I could take all her money, and I did. Love it when you play with people who only bet when they have a sure hand. She was like taking candy from a baby. I almost felt bad. Ha, No I didn't. I hope she plays again with us tonight. Plus it is kinda nice to finally have another girl at the table. I like being the only one for the most part, but now and again its nice to have another one. I will say I am not very good at this poker thing either, but last night I cleaned house. Took money from everyone. Maybe I shouldnt play tonight. Haha... Take my money and run. Nah can't do that. We are grillin filet's tonight. So good.

I Miss You

I am sick with it. The need to be near you the need to touch and feel you. If only to just hear your voice for a split second. Words can not describe what it is that I feel inside. My stomach is all in knots and I don't know weather to dance or throw up. AHHHH, will this never end. I can't take it anymore. I just can't take not knowing.

Tsunami in Japan

Today

A ferocious tsunami spawned by one of the largest earthquakes ever recorded slammed Japans eastern coast. Hundreds were killed while it swept away boats, cars, houses, while widespread fires burned out of control. Hours later it hit Hawaii and warns raced across the Pacific, putting areas on alert as far away as South America, Canada, the entire US, and west coast in Japan.

The 8.9 offshore earthquake unleashed a 23 foot (7 meter) tsunami and was followed my more then 50 aftershocks for several hours. Many of them reached over a 6.0 magnitude. Dozens of villages along a 1300 mile stretch of coast line were shaken by violent tremors that reached as far away as Tokyo.

Even for a county used to earth quakes, this one was of horrific proportions because of the tsunami that followed swallowing everything in its path as it surged inland for several miles.

First waves hit Hawaii about 9am eastern time, waves reached around three feet. Japans worse previous quake was an 8.3 in 1923, it killed 143,000 people. Japan lies on what is called "the ring of fire" An arc stretching around the Pacific where about 90% of the worlds earth quakes occur, including the one in December of 2006 that killed around 230,000 people in at least 12 nations.

Facebook Takes Away The Fun of Stalking

So what happened to the creeps that had to study someones every move for days and sometimes weeks, learn their behaviors and there daily routines. You know those people that actually had to put work into finding you and finding your most vulnerable moment. They enjoyed the hunt, knowing how to pick the weak person who would sercum to the antics.

Well I bet they are pissed. I bet they hate facebook. It has ruined there whole game. There is no need to follow anyone or learn there behaviors. All this information is uploaded everyday, willingly by ladies around the country.

"FML, he left me, off to Z Spa with the girls."

"At Urban Active, working out with Mindy and Kim, then off to Starbucks."

"What a shitty day I am having, will someone please make me smile."

Yeah I am sure there are hundreds of men staring at your sad half naked profile picture just dreaming about how to make you smile. To bad one of them probably lives down the street from you and now not only does he know that your a cute little girl in his neighborhood, he knows your job, your relationship status, your entire families names. What you have been doing all week, where you go to school, who you hang out with on the weekends, where you hang out on the weekends. Need I say more. And why does he know all this. Not because he dug through your trash or has been following you around for the past couple of weeks.

Nope, he knows it all because he started a facebook page under the false name of Kim with a picture he grabbed off google. He added you as a friend, and since Kim appears to be a fun loving girl in her twenties who lives in your home town, you accepted. No harm in that , right.... Well your wrong. Now creepy 50 yr old George has complete access to all your information and its only a mouse click away.

Not the to mention the free semi porn you are providing him with your bikini shots and awesome duck face poses. Really ladies. How stupid have we become. No one thinks that shits hot. Facebook is not here to help you start up your career in the Adult Industry, although I feel that most girls think it is...

Ahhhh. Just ranting. Next.

YES I Sent A Mass Text

Well, I am bar tending part time again, just can't seem to stay away from it. So like my natural self, I sent out a mass text to inform everyone in my phone about where I am now working. Funny some people have the phones that allow you to see who else this message has been sent to.

What these people don't seem to understand is that I know this feature is there. I know that you can tell it is a mass text. So don't get all out of shape when you realize this too. I really got some hateful responses to my mass text on Saturday.

"You f-in suck, you sent out a mass text and here I thought it was just for me."

"Fuck, I wasn't special, I thought I was, you just want my damn money."

"You make it sound like it was just gonna be me and you watching it, but I get it your working. You really suck right now."

Those are just three of the responses I got to it. First off, these are obviously all from guys in my phone, not one single girl seems to care if its a mass text. They will be glad to come keep you company, and they never throw in the tip comment.

Second, Hell no it was not just for you. If I have never hit you up for a solo outing before what makes you think I am going to do it at 11am on a Saturday. Come on really guys, I am your friend this is my job, why the hell do you get so bent out of shape.

Third, yes I want your damn money, don't most girls. But at least you know whats up when you walk in the door. But believe it or not most days I would rather have the company, days bar shifts can be slow and drag on for ever. The money is just an extra perk. And as for the guy who said I maid it sound like it was going to be just me and him watching it; trust me son you definitely miss-read that one. What is wrong with men.

To all men out there be warned.... This bitch sends out mass texts when she is working and yes, it is partly because she wants your tip money. If I just wanted the company I would invite my mom, she can talk for hours and I would never have to worry about being bored.

What Do They Say, "The Straw..."

Isn't he just so cute with his bad over bite and droopy face. You can't help but love him. I will tell you what I don't love, his owner. Yes once again I am complaining about my lovely roommate. I am just so damn frustrated these days I have to vent somewhere. I just don't understand how someone could be so damn uncaring and lazy. I mean she takes care of absolutely nothing but herself.

So I came across this mess THREE days ago....

She swore to me she was going to clean it up. I should have known better. Has she, hell no. That is my basement, I work out down there everyday, the laundry is down there, the cleaning supplies, so I have been stepping over this shit to get down. I told myself I was not going to clean it up and see how long it would take her, But I cant handle it anymore. I mean how do you get through to someone how completely lazy and selfish they are. I am way to nice to this girl, but I am starting to get angry and that's not good. Nope, that's never good. Who lives there life like that. This isn't just shit in the corner you can honestly forget about, this is a huge frickin mess that you cant miss. WTF. I will never live with a girl again. I really cant even look at her anymore without disgust. I really don't want to live with her anymore, my lease is till October, I am never going to make it. I wish she would just move out.

SHIT Doesnt Cover It

My roomate strikes again, barrowed my favorite heels and left them out in the living room with the dogs. Weird, she never leaves her own shoes out, no matter how drunk she is.

This Girl Is Driving Me Crazy

Let me ask you if this is a sign of a responsible person?

So, girl #1 gets up at 5 am, lets out the dogs(one belonging to her and one to her roomate), feeds them, goes to gym, comes home. Apon ariving home she lets out the dogs again, takes a shower and then heads to job number one. Job number one is an office job, that requires some field work and sales. It last from 8 am to 2pm. Then she drives straight from job number one to job number 2, where she is a nanny. Kids homework, laundry, light housework. Nothing too grueling, but none the less she must be there. These jobs are both monday through friday every week the same ordeal.

Then you have girl number 2#, she is a nursing student who works maybe one day a week, two at the most. Granted she normally has classes 3 days a week and clinicals 2 so I c why she doesnt work as much as girl #1.

Now to explain where the above question comes into play; Yesturday girl #1 went through her normal routine and girl #2 had the day off from school and work. A nice break for her. Girl #1 decided to go and play poker after work instead of coming straight home. It is becoming her tuesday night ritual. And girl #2 is aware of this. Well poker normally last till about 10:30, not to late as she has to get up bright and early the next day.

When girl #1 got home around 11 girl #2 was complaining about how girl #1's dog was bad all day, peed in the house, continuous barking, so on and so on. So girl #1 says sorry and begins to assest the situation, for as her dog is normally not like that. Do you know what she discovered. Girl #2 admittingly had not fed the dogs at all, and was so anoyed by girl #1's barking 'hungry' dog that she kept him in his kennel as punishment for being "bad". Did not let him out the entire evening, its no wonder he peed on himself and in the house. He is a 4 month old puppy who can't hold his bladder. #2 then explained she had not fed them because her dog was out of food and she forgot. WTF. If you were out of food yourself would you just forget. Hell No. This is the same girl who never walks her dog, does her dishes, cleans after herself, or anything

But she does take two hours on her hair and make-up when getting ready to go out, and she does go out 2-3 nights a week.

I cant stand ignorant self centered people.

Oh Blah.

I feel sick to my stomach, oh please don't come back to haunt me.

She Lies

I really hate when someone tries to tell you how many partners they have had in life. You don't even have to ask. They just offer up the information. And do you know why they do this, because they are lying about their numbers. Because it makes them feel better to think they have fooled you. Well they haven't. Not me at least. I just don't understand the point. Why make it a point to offer up that information so that every one knows your full of shit. Just save us all the trouble and keep it to yourself unless asked.

Personal experience; a girl I know got drunk one of the first times we hung out, she curiously asked me how many people I have been with and after thinking about it for a moment, I told her. Its no big secret for me. But as I was getting ready to tell her I could read it all over her face, the hope that I would tell her a higher number then she had for herself..... Well I would sure hope so as I am five years older then her.

Do you know what she told me in response to my answer... Good, because I have been with only five and I was worried I was a slut. I figured she was lieing, but tried to give her the benefit of the doubt. Ha ha, what a mistake that was. This crazy girl has been with at least that many guys since I started hanging out with her, in November..... Somethings not adding up.... Either she is a new slut on the market, or she is a big fat lier....

So guys beware, because if she is lying to her new found best friend, then she is definitely lieing to you. Glad I am female, I never have a problem with guys admitting they "used to be a whore" at last they tell half the truth all the time.

Hope & Love

Faith is being sure of what you hope for,
And certain of what you do not see.
Love is everything that you hoped for,
And feeling that it was meant to be.

Today; His Words and Mine.

In the words of my brother, whom I believe to be extremely hung over.....

"Today is just another fucking day, Red pill or blue pill? Screw it I better take both."

For once I give today the powers that will be, but only for today. I feel exhausted, this day I will be a puppet and today can just have its way with me. Maybe the day will turn out better then it has started.

Bed, why must I leave you.

Bullshit

Today, the nicest day of the year thus far.... tomorrow, nicer yet. Is that possible? Yes, yes it is. You know why it is possible, because I am sick. Congested, coughing, sneezing, feeling like shit. Scratchy throat, watery eyes. Since when do people get congested in Feb. Allergies are for the birds and they piss me off. Where is my pillow, I am going back to bed.

So.....

True truth speaks more then hallow lies.

My Puppies

My baby is getting so big.

Odd Findings At A Storage Locker Auction

Went to a storage locker auction for the first time today. It was freezing by the way. But do you know that they auctioned off a unit that looked like it only had shit clothes in it and it ended up having over a pound of cocaine in it. People are crazy these days, who leaves drugs in a storage unit. Pay your rent or get that shit out of there before they reposes it.

If I had to guess I would say that boy probably got locked up and that's why his unit didn't get paid for on time. But if by some odd chance he is just that big of an idiot I am sure he will then be getting locked up today. The cops were the first people they called when they found the drugs. I bet he sure does owe someone alot of money for all that cocaine he isn't going to get to push onto the streets. Poor stupid shit.

Smiling Too

So he says.....

"About your doubts, it natural. If you look hard enough at a rose all you will see is the tiny ugly cells that make it; not the beautiful flower that it really is. What I am saying is nothing is perfect... "
"Seriously, part of me feels that the past couple of years never happened, that we never split, and I try to imagine my life as if you have always been in it. It always brings a smile to my face."

I think he is so sweet. I am smiling too.

You Think You Got Game

So my girl tells me she has a real issue. Needs my opinion on what she should do....

Really, are you sure it's my opinion you want? Haha. This girl didn't know what she was in for. The scenario..... She caught her boyfriend on an online sex site. You know, one of those websites where you post semi-nude or even nude photos and try to pick up random sex dates. No dinner, no movies, just two people looking to get laid and go on with there lives like nothing else happened. Apparently she was raiding his email and found the emails.

Heads up guys, don't make your online sex site password the same as all your other passwords. She had no problem breaking into his account. Read all the emails, those from him to girls and those from girls to him. Found out that these girls were local, that he was giving them his number, and that he was setting up dates and times to meet them. So before she brought this all to my attention she confronted him.......

Well, you know what he said, "its not what you think. Its innocent. I had no intentions of ever meeting them or doing anything. It was just my own personal ego booster." Then he followed with the typical, "I love you, I need you, I would never intentionally do anything to hurt you."

Well I told her she is retarded to believe him and then I advised her to give him a taste of his own medicine. See my friend is cute as shit and has a banging ass body. I told her to use the same website and create her own profile. Naturally I advised her to have no nude pics and nothing that featured anything above the neck. Just sexy lingerie and body shots. We don't want your grandma rolling over in her grave, or even worse some undercover pervert in your family on the site coming across your face. I then told her to see how many responses she gets and show him.... I promised her the guys would be blowing it up, emails would be over flowing. Trust me men, if you think you can play this game we can play better, and hot bodied women will always win over your "Over sized penis" that you think you have...

Well she did and guess what I was right. In four days she had 1052 emails. In your face you dirt bag. She then followed my instructions and deleted the account. Point proven, enough said. Play on players. We win.

WOD 1-28-11

Workout of the day.

1000 meter row
100 Double Unders
50 Burpees

For time.
My time 14:34

Guess I got to pick up my speed. I hate burpees.

Shit

Personally for me I have always wanted to be a wife and a mother. I always pictured myself getting married at a very young age, growing old with my husband, and enjoying grandchildren with him. But funny how life doesn't always work out how you hoped, dreamed, or planned. So I got used to things not being the way I planned, got comfortable with being single. Figured it would all come together if it was meant to. Funny how once you stop looking for something it seems to find you, and naturally for me, when the opportunity does seemingly present itself, there is an obstacle. That's just how life goes. Mine anyway. What would it be if there wasn't shit against me every now and again, rather boring I guess.

Only You.

Painted a picture of how its was to turn out.

Down in a cold dirty well and I'm trying to climb.

Can't see no lights, cant hear no bells.

They walk right over me and cant even hear my yells.

My mind is spinning around.

I'm on my way down.

The louder I am, the deeper I sink.

Hell seems like such a close link.

Only You can hear me now,

Only you can save me now.

Push Over No More

As I reflect on the last 23 days of the first month of the new year, I realise, I see myself becoming more tolerant of the things I sometimes feel I should not tolerate. As I continue to push myself to act according to my thinking, I sometimes find myself feeling like a pushover, who is passing over the opportunity to just be. Settling is just not an option today, but somehow I tend to allow b and c into the equation. How do you stand firm when your feelings are so fickle.

Left Field. Holy Shit!

So this is so out of left field...

I get a facebook add a couple days ago and naturally I don't recognize the name. But I am a master at forgetting names so I try to click on the picture and of coarse you must be their friend to view anything on their profile. I agree with this protection of privacy 100% but damn-it when I have to add strangers due to my own forgetfulness.

So I decide, add them, if I know them I will keep them and if I don't I will delete them as fast as I added them. To my surprise I knew this person. Knew this person quite well. Ended up being a good friend of mine from years ago that I had just wrote off as a person I would never see again.

Now hear is where it gets crazy. I didn't really know him for long and it has been seven years since I had seen or herd from him. But he claims, and I stress he claims, to have never forgotten about me. Says he has been looking for me for months. Reminding me of all the details of our entire relationship. To my own very surprise I now can't get him out of my head either.

He lives too far away for us to meet up and leaves across seas in three days. He will be gone for two months. I don't know what to think, I am confused. Never in a million ears did I expect him to come back into my life but now that he has I don't want to loose him again. So bizarre and I love it. I just hope he makes it back safely.

No More Smoking

I woke up with a headache and I am dragging ass to get out of bed. I didn't want to get up so I didn't. I missed my gym appointment and now I am pissed. I will have to try and go tonight. To bad I can never get motivated to go in the afternoon. Blah.

My roommate accused me of eating her food this mourning. Why didn't I just tell her the truth, I don't know how it got there but I picked half of it up off the floor today. Dogs surely enjoyed it. Did you leave it out and forget. Sometimes I feel like a mother, I don't want to correct people in there everyday lives. I don't have any kids and i am sure if I do I will get enough mothering in then so I shouldn't have to do it now.

My throat burns. I smoked too many cigarettes last night. That's it. I am done. The world is my witness. Cold turkey right here and right now. No more smoking....

Where It Came From

Ever wonder where the black leather jacket came from, or the cold stare you get from the man wearing it out in front of the bar. What about the cold shudder that runs down your spine as you pass the guys wearing the bandannas and sharply creased khakis. Well, here is some insight, the idea of this sole called rebel actually took shape due to Hollywood. Weather you like it or not, that is the truth. But don't let it bother you if you just realized that your own personal style is actually a knockoff of what was being done on the silver screen some 60 yrs ago.

Let me remind you that even as a copycat you are in very good company. There is Bucky, Brando, McQueen, Presley, Newman, and I could go on and on. They were all doing it back in the day. Nobody did Rebel the way these guys did it. I mean nobody.